News

This afternoon, a friend of mine told me that her husband has cancer of the throat and lymph nodes.  Which is tragic, no matter what. But, why this makes it doubly so for me is that I worked for her husband, my friend!, for a decade.  I shared more time with him than almost anyone else outside of my family.  When my friend (the wife) was in a car wreck and broke her neck, I was there taking care of everyone.  I covered his job at work, made sure he was eating/sleeping/etc. while she was in surgery and recovering.  I've known these friends since 1994!

I think I may be a little stunned.  I know that cancer can be defeated.  I don't want to think that I could be without my friend, no matter how much he drove me nuts. 

So, I don't know what to do.  I guess I have to just get it out there so I can start to work with it....

The Artist's Way - Chapter Two ( I think)

I kinda got wrapped up in work and the Artist's Way so I've forgotten what I have posted so far.  I know that I have physically read the second chapter, done some of the tasks, and am reading chapter three.  Whoops!

I am really enjoy this, as some of my blog entries have shown.  My daily pages aren't morning most of the time, mainly due to work schedule - it's darn hard to write morning pages when I'm at work at 6:30 am!  So I've been adjusting and having a good time.  I know that a lot of my not-written-in-the-morning pages are rants for the first page or so.  LOL
I've been doing the dates, also.  So much so that I've quit viewing them as a 'date'.  I'm just working them into my weekly life.  Yay!  It's kind of nice to do something nice for myself, as weird or unnatural as it feels at first.

For the second chapter, I did the mandala task.  A couple of time because when I realized that I was lacking in certain areas.  It was a good task that I'll continue again.
And, to be honest, sitting here I can't remember the other task that I did.  (I'm mixing up chapters)   I remember writing it down in my morning pages, but that's it. 

Bliss

bliss

noun \ˈblis\

1

: complete happiness

2

: paradise, heaven 

 

 I have been trying to pay attention to things lately and not just blindly go through life.  These days, I'm being told (a lot) to trust in the Universe.  My Artist's Way wrote about how to trust that 'things' (sorry) will just work out.   A strange horoscope appeared in my inbox saying that the Universe will provide, just ask.  A friend got herself natal birth chart software and ran all of my astrology information -a saturn in taurus and a northern node in pisces. Did you know that a northern node in Pisces means that I should follow my bliss?

 

Yep, I should dedicate myself to enjoying bliss.  Every day.  Bliss.  Complete happiness.   And I should trust the Universe to provide it for me.    

I think.  

I'm still working on the 'trust the universe' part.  But, there are little moments - like this evening when I made mac and cheese for my Youngest - that I had a flash of bliss. My mac and cheese days are slowly coming to an end.  Soon, they'll make it for themselves or avoid it completely.  So I stirred happily.  Blissfully.  

And then I went out and ran 2 miles.  Because I now can.  (No, it's not bliss, but I'm trying to talk myself into it.)

When It All Comes Together

**[Just so that everyone knows, the guy is doing good!!  He's gonna be okay!]**

Today was one of those days where it all kinda came together.  Where everyone can see the Real Maggie, even when I'm covered in dust and fire retardant.  And when I finally say a good line, instead of thinking of it later.

I love today.  I am so proud of myself and I feel like I'm on the right path/trail/hidden passage.  I'm so happy to be there, be in the right place at the right time to make a difference to somebody.

Okay, so I'll quit waving to the (nonexistant) crowd and tell you what happened.

As I think I may have explained, I am a wildfire retardant tester.  The plane flies over, drops the retardant and my crews and I work with the aviation company to pick up the test tubs.  (about the size of a Cool-Whip bowl)  Well, as we're collecting the last load, I watch one of the aviation crew guys fall to the ground in a grand mal seizure.  Full on seizure.
So, I race over there in my big fire boots and get him turned to his side.  He continues seizing and my inner superwoman comes out.  (don't worry, I won't break my arm patting myself on the back)  I keep him on his side, start barking orders to the forest s*rvice and pretty much everyone around me.  I kept talking to him while he came out of the seizure.  I sounded like a HOT Florence Nightengale.

Did you know that if you call 911 while at the airport, it shuts the whole thing down?



Huh.

Anyway, the fire department, the ambulance, the airport police and the forest s*rvice all arrive, I do a complete evaluation to the EMTs (kinda cute) and get him in the bus.  As they're driving away, one of the Forest Service ladies asks me,  "How do you do that?  You were so calm?  Are you an EMT?"

So I said the first thing that came out of my mouth,

"No, but men are always throwing themselves at my feet."

Hey! I Caught a Wishing Wednesday

Knowing the awesome power of a together wishgranting, I think hard and long about what I want to wish for.  (By the way, I watched a really cool episode of Through the Wormhole that had me thinking of you all.  It's impressive!)



I am having a blast at work.  I love the work, being outside and watching the planes.  I am having a great time and I so appreciate all of the help there. Without sound greedy, I'd like to ask for help promoting and selling my artistic creations.  I am trying different artistic methods and really enjoying myself.  I feel so creative and happy and I'd like a little bit of extra cash (like everyone else) to be able to explore new techniques and expressions without feeling like I'm taking food out of my kids' mouths.


Okay, I have to edit this...it dawned on me that I have a relationship that needs being dealt with.  I've danced around it for years, but I need to deal with it and get it settled, one way or another.  But, I need monster help with it.  I feel like it could be one of those things I'll regret if I don't know one way or another. 
So, I wish help getting this relationship started so I can see.  Just see.


Thanks!  (again)

That was kind of a convoluted way to ask and I hope that you understand.

Synchronicity - Yea Right! :)

I got this photo just a couple of minutes ago!  There is a storm coming through my area.  Not through the whole part, just enough to create some really good shots.  So, remembering my Artist's Way (be ready for synchronicity), I ran out there with my camera.
And, after almost being carried away by mosquitoes, I got this shot.  I knew it'd make your (pl) day.  In an Artist's Way sort of way.  :)

Give Away!

Well, we worked our butts off today - got four slurry drops in today before having to stop.  (We got way ahead of the people who analyze the results and they need tomorrow to get caught up.)  Yeah, I worked myself out of a job.  At least, for tomorrow.  We go back up on Wednesday morning.
But, it's very very cool.  And I'm having a blast.

And since we're all doing the Artist's Way, I'm hoping that one of us win this give away from the Eye of Nuit.  It's very cool stuff and would make a wonderful addition to an artist's date!  (hint hint)

So, head over here and get entered!!

No Vacation

Well, it's no vacation, but this job coming up sounds like a blast.    We got everything laid out on Friday and we're hitting the ground running tomorrow morning, first thing.  I can't wait.  (I mean, right now I can wait, 'cause I'm nowhere near packed....but you know what I mean)


I'm probably going to miss everyone's wishcrafting, darnit, but know that what everyone is wishing for themselves, I'm wishing for you also.  Let's keep that magic rolling along.

I've been successful with my daily pages and dates so far.  I may be sticking a bunch of artist's dates into a short amount of time, but it's still going to happen.  I've got a mostly morning schedule at work so my late afternoons are going to be open.  Yay!   :)

First Date

Today, after work and dropping off radishes (yep), I took myself to Michael's craft shop.  If any of you have kids, you know that you never take your kids into Michael's if you want to get in there quickly or if there's something you want to look at yourself. 

So, I don't ever get in there.

But, today I went in and met the nicest little salesgirl who let me try out all of the different paints.  We went through the watercolor pencils (LOVE THEM) and she showed me how they work and the different things you can do with them.  I'm desperately have heart boners for these little pencils.  ohmi!

But, I am also open to other suggestions.  So, if someone has an art medium that they prefer, drop me a comment.  I'd love check those out too.